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11:09 AM - Monday, December 14, 2009

By saying thanks & real thanks to the passerby doesn't mean anything.
It doesn't mean i dont appreciate you.
I don't say it out doesn't mean deep down inside i don't appreciate what you'd done.
I know you did it to show me things, frankly you can say my actions & stuffs doesn't show you that I appreciate what you'd done. But all i can say is, i do appreciate it, just that I don't say it out, cause i thought you'd understand, you'd know that I do appreciate what you'd done.
You said you've the choice to do selective hearing now too, but seriously you believe him that I'd offer him that? You know he freaking twist & turn facts around like no tomorrow, don't even know when is he speaking the truth. But now? You didn't even clarify it with me.
I can bloody tell you for sure that I didn't offer him anything, that's the fcuking truth & fact.
& i do appreciate everything that you do, just that i didn't say it out or blog it out.

6:29 PM - Sunday, December 13, 2009

Finally a meet-up for Joanna.
Thanks babe for all the advices & etc.
I will move on, sooner or later (:

Settled everything once & for all.
Friends it shall be, no worries of you doing anything wrong, cause you won't have the chance to.
& frankly, do you seriously think I know nothing bout Chrissy?
You do know the relation between me & her already right?
Get it into your mind, I knew it right from the day you added her in msn.
But I just kept quiet, pretending I don't know anything to prevent any arguments.
You twist & turn facts, example: it was YOU who initiated the chat first but what you told Chrissy? It was me who initiated it.
You'd still have to the cheek to tell me you wonder how you'd be like in future?
All I can say is: So long as you quit playing/fooling/cheating around, & stay absolute truthful to a girl, you'll be fine. If not, you'll still be the same.
& remember, there's always a thing call Karma.

Justin & Huiqi: thanks, i sure will (:
Rachel: Yupps, i do know after you told me (:
Passerby: I don't know if all the tags under Passerby belongs to the same person. Thanks, real thanks (:

6:38 PM - Saturday, December 12, 2009

I gave you three days to think bout it, but you refused.
Giving me an answer straight away, without thinking it deep.
We teared, I tried to walk away but you pull me back, a few times it happened.
I saw the texts you sent, a pity that I didn't see hers.
Got upset & angry again, & you asked when you know what I'll reply.
You got pissed off & kept your cool, thanks for that.
But seriously, I really dont know what you want N-O-W.
Your actions & your words don't tally, my boy. Seriously.
Think about it. & forget about knowing Chrissy.

11:19 PM - Friday, December 11, 2009

Jason Derulo - Whatcha Say

wha- wha- wha- wha- what did you say
Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Mmmm that it's all for the best
of course it is

[Verse 1]
I was so wrong for so long
Only tryin' to please myself (myself)
Girl I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else
So no I know I should of treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever

So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man

(oh!)

[Chorus]
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Mmmm that it´s all for the best?
of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Whatcha say (whatcha say)
wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say?

[Verse 2]
How could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go (love go)
And ooh what I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know....
I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you we´re meant to be together

So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man

[Chorus]
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn´t know what to do
But when I become a star we´ll be living so large
I´ll do anything for you
So tell me girl

Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Whatcha say (Whatcha say)
Mmmm that it´s all for the best?
of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Whatcha say (whatcha say)
wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say?

Girl tell me what to say I (say I)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin´
Tell me tell me what to say I (say I)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right girl

Tell me tell me what to say I (say I)
I don´t want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin´
Tell me tell me what to say I (say I)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain´t right.....

[Chorus]
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn´t know what to do (i just didn't know what to do)
But when I become a star we´ll be living so large
I´ll do anything for you
So baby whatcha say!.........

Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Mmmm that it´s all for the best
of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Whatcha say (whatcha say)
wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say?

Highlighted in red are the words that i hope i'd hear from you, one day.
But then again, i doubt it's gonna be possible to hear them coming out from you.
I'm trying my best, sometimes it feels as thou I'd forgotten but then it came back again.
Tried my best to avoid, but I think I failed miserably. I read what you sent that morning & I teared again.
Laughing is my best disguise in school. But once I'm alone, it came back, everything, happy/sad/angry moments.
It's a short & brief r/s really, but the impact of it is harder than everything else. I wonder why. I wonder why I'll get over..

10:47 PM -

On a happier note, the following is my desktop background image:

Click on it & see what's written on the wrists.

On a doubly happier note, look at what the Maths Faci of W45Q, Goh Boon Leong said in my 'Comments for Individual':

Take note on the 'Comments for Individual' & 'Daily Grade'.
Kinda happy actually, late still can get A. Hahaha.

8:49 PM -

I guess today really isn't my day.

First, I got damn lazy in editing the CSS codes for the website.
Second, I was freaking tired that I dozed off during Marketing UT.
Third, I wasted one egg while cracking it into my cup noodle. The white went onto the floor.
Fourth, i accidentally scraped alil of the skin out around my thumb area.

I'm still thinking...............................................

9:23 AM - Thursday, December 10, 2009

I admit it's hard trying to act normal to everyone,
its hard to not show my sadness out, cause once I'm alone, it'll be out.

Follow my Twit :D